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well it was quite a day. we are working on some cool things at work. i feel hopeful. i feel a lot of things--sometimes my feelings change suddenly like a sudden storm, activated by tiny triggers. mohammad is often amazed at how quickly it can change. welcome to 'emotions', an umbrella short-cut term that we use to explain my lightening descent into tears, could be sad, could be happy, could be a release of intensity, and sometimes the tears are just unexplainable. what am i even talking about. i'm talking about riding the perimenopause bronco buck. i was going to say i don't remember being like this all my life, but then again i do remember crying while vacuuming when i was 11 and having no idea why. gram was over and she invited me to spend some time with her in west van. it was a special time with just me and her. i miss her. i miss both my grammas. "don't tell me it's emotions!" booms mohammad in his most jovial manner. joviality and distraction ar...
