life's little day

i had a hard time getting up this morning.  i stayed too long in bed, and so i didn't shower and i really needed to.  i faced my reflection in the bathroom at work and thought "30 miles of bad country road".  it's an expression lisa used to say.  my hair could be described as grizzly. not the bear.  "i'll have a shower when i get home, before young womens," i told myself in an effort to stir some embers of hope.  but when i got home, exhaustion and sleepiness washed over me like wave that carried me straight to my bedroom.  i took off all my clothes in a feeble gesture towards shower but ended up in heap of flesh on my bed under a crisp sheet hugging squish like a life preserver.  this post is full of similes.  i tried to scan through instagram but i had no will for it.  i dropped my phone and closed my eyes and sank into near oblivion.  only the fact that i can't sleep for more than a minute without my cpap kept me from departing into the bliss of nothingness that is sleep.  

i don't know why i was so tired. the same thing happened to me yesterday at the same time of day.  just now that long forgotten song of my childhood came to my mind "train whistle blowing, makes a happy sound, all bound for morning town, many miles away".  anyways i roused myself at six thirty, clothed my nakedness, made a weird meal of cold quinoa, spicy thai tuna, and roasted red pepper with some random condiments.  i'm really scraping the bottom of the barrel with my food stuffs.  

for young womens one of the girls taught us how to write some words in mandarin.  it was fun and interesting. by the end we could write "i am a panda" which i'm sure will come in handy one day.

after yw i had a shower and it was good.  then i went out to the sanctuary and did some scripture study and it was also good. the old lady was supremely bugged by me being on the porch however and had to come out go in, come out and go in all the while complaining loudly, verily put out.  now that i'm in she's perfectly content.

my dahlias got too much water and i'm hoping they will survive.

and that is how i lived today.

me of yesteryear.