i love him so much. i feel like i belong wherever he is. i feel like i want to be with him always. but i can't. and this is grief. this is sorrow. and i hurt someone i love who loves me like this. and this is worse grief. this is worse sorrow.
and i'm writing about it because i need to express it, but i don't want to talk about it. i don't want you to phone me or visit me. and i don't want to hear one bad word about my love. ever. and i might want to be by myself for a while. and i might write depressing posts. please forgive me.