Sunday, March 12, 2017

spring forward sounds deceptively positive

lindsay sent me a snapchat today of her looking tired and text written across it that said "day light savings can suck it".  i feel her. there have been years that daylight savings has booted me in the proverbial basketballs, but this year i tried to be ready for it.  and what i mean by being ready for it, is i tried to go to bed early.  this was especially important because i had ward council at 7:15 am which was really 6:15 if the world would just tell the truth and stop messing with our minds.  going to bed early for me on a saturday, is like 11 instead of 1 or 2, so let's keep things in perspective.  

i had to get up extra early because i wanted to prepare my yw lesson before ward council.  also i had to give the spiritual thought.  so i only got around five hours of sleep but that is becoming my new normal because i want, need and crave dark circles and heavy bags under my eyes.  also i wake up every night after about five hours of sleep with both my hands asleep.  it's a phenomenon i've been chipping away on.  i know it has something to do with my neck because by moving my neck in certain ways i can un-sleep my hands (except now my left hand requires me to sit up fully in bed and curve myself forward in a lovely middle of the night tuck).   so at first i thought it was probably my pillows because my pillows have been a blight on my bed for quite some time.  so i bought new pillows recently at winners, and they're lovely.  they are marshmallows.  they are poofy squooshy puffy wuffy.  they are fat pockets of delight.  but the hands thing remains.  it didn't happen to me in tofino, so tonight i'm going to sleep on the floor to test if it's my bed.  i dread it being my bed.  love to my bed.  my bed that d2 and d3 lost on the highway but then found it again miraculously (mostly) unscathed.  my bed that's so soft and comfy.  my bed.  my friend.  my refuge when life got too painful and too hard to handle.  please let it not be the bed.

anyway, i went to ward council and said my scripture then other things i said were "yeah" and "yes" and "in my sister's ward they had sealing nights at the temple."  i like to really get in there and contribute.  i also like to sit there with glazed eyes and pretend to be a statue.  shrug.  everyone's diff'rent mkay?

yw's was ok,  i think my lesson was underwhelming to them.  it is a miracle if i ever get some discussion going among them, and today was not a miracle day.  i just have to hope and have faith that a.) things are happening inside of them that their sometimes catatonic state belies and hopefully some light and truths are seeping in. b.) i will learn and be inspired better over time how to reach them more effectively.  c.) and in the meantime i hope love is enough.  because i can do that.

i also gave the spiritual thought and ended up telling them the WHOLE movie i watched last night, which was pele.  but it was so good and the message so good. i was thinking about it last night.  how we know--it's common sense--we know it's best to be ourselves.  to be ourselves is the best way to be.  God made us so unique and beautiful and gave us powerful gifts, but if we are too busy trying to be like someone else, or how we think we should be, if we are too busy doubting ourselves or being ashamed of who we are, we miss out on shining our amazing beautiful light on the world.  and like pele--he couldn't even play soccer like the european way which everyone was trying to emulate.  he failed at that. but he could totally shine with the way he knew how to play.  he was a genius at it and it was a beautiful art in him.  but no one knew that until he had the courage to put the doubt away and believe in himself.  we need to remember this and learn it over and over, it seems.  i often have to tell myself, ok put away your fears and be yourself and enjoy yourself.  forget the fears and doubts.  go scuba diving in a wet suit that shows all your blobs and rolls.  and when i succeed the rewards are great.... oh that movie was so so so good.  I LOVE MOVIES LIKE THAT.  let every movie be based on a true story of someone overcoming odds to shine in the world.  that is the best stuff.  i want to feed my soul that stuff all day long. 

girl's weekend is coming up and katie and i decided to make donairs.  and i decided to make the hot pink pickled turnips which are one of my favourite parts of my neighbourhood donair.  so i started them off yesterday.  it's supposed to take a week to pickle, but we will have to open them one day early.  they get their awesome hot pink colour from a stick or two of beets that you brine along side of the turnips.  it's a very simple recipe and i'll be super happy if they turn out.  all my pickled turnip dreams will have come true.

last week lindsay gathered up her courage and told me she applied to work a year in japan teaching english.  she wants to do it before she's done her masters (which she is doing by distance).  i know it was hard for her to tell me and she teared up because obv she loves working at pathways and loves working with me....  i took it all in stride and was happy for her.  i am happy for her and she is so young, she should be doing things like this while she has the chance.  i waited until i got home to allow myself to feel the loss.  we created such a nice little family in our unit and it seems that i will be losing them all.  pascale got changed to a different unit starting at our move to the new building, yaz is probably moving to toronto because of her boyfriend's work and lindsay is leaving too.  i cried a little and felt sad and lonely.  i think creating this tight knit group at work has helped ease the loss of lisa for me.  it's been special.  i'm thankful for these 3 years.  who knows what the future will hold.


Tuesday, February 14, 2017

cosmic rose lover

this year, with lindsay and pascale in grad school, we didn't go hog wild about the hot chocolate festival like we did last year.  but there was one place i knew i had to go.  koko monk chocolates--when we went last year the owner who is turkish, talked to us about his hot chocolates like they were pieces of art and talked about starting and finishing notes, like you imagine might happen at a wine tasting.  and they were amazing and very creative.  this year i saw that one of the hot chocolates was called cosmic rose.  it had dark chocolate, coconut milk, rose, salted caramel and cardamom.  i knew i had to have it.  if you go there on the last week you can have 'flights' of 3 different flavours.  i told heather about it and we decided to meet on monday afternoon for some family day hot chocolate.

when i picked her up i was in the middle of drying my hair in the car so it was stifling hot like a sauna without the aromatic cedar.  heather heaved a desperate sigh of relief when i said she could crack open a window, ha ha.                             

for our flight we chose cosmic rose, sin and salvation, which is a white hot chocolate with lavender, chamomile and fig, and talking dirty with sun god, which had black olives, and chili.  cosmic rose was the kindred spirit i felt in my bones that it would be.  all of them were good though.  heather bonded deep with sin and salvation.  

we sat out on the sidewalk and basked in the sun with our hot chocolates. it was such a glorious sunny and mild day.
we decided to have sushi afterwards, and there just happened to be a sushi place a couple of businesses down from koko's.  i got a roll called west 1st and a roll called crunchy roll.  we shared some gomae and agadeshi tofu.  the crunchy roll was rolled in these little crispy crunchies that i was continually fishing out of my bra.  then i looked down and saw i had dripped soy sauce all down my shirt.  "oh great now what am i going to do?" i said in dismay.  heather said that it wasn't noticeable on my shirt because of all the birds.  but i noticed it a lot.  so it was decided that i would go into the washroom and turn my shirt backwards so the soy sauce drizzle would be hidden behind my cardigan.  "going back to my teenage tricks" i murmured to myself.  i also used to turn shirts inside out if i got a stain on it.                                                                                                                             

next we went for a walk at the beach.                                                                                                                                                                                 

notice the backwards shirt

we watched a tree full of noisy chirping birds and sat on logs, walked down paths and eventually found this outcropping of rocks that we climbed up and sat out on the edge watching the sunset.  it was charming night, as an egyptian might say.                                                                                                     

heather often says that she doesn't know how to explain to people back home in ontario about why she loves to live out here.  they need to come and see how beautiful it is, she says.  it's true.  it's such a beautiful land and i feel so blessed to be here.

so when i got home, i started working on photos.  i'm working on douglas' wedding pics, and i zoomed in on this group shot and what did i find.  i found amy.                                                         

so many shots like that. hahaha ha ahh...    

today i put on a valentine's dance at work.  i wore my new red jeggings, and a pink top with a hot pink lacy tank underneath, and my sweater of many colours.  we made them meatloaf muffins with spicy tomato hearts on top and cheese chunks inside, and mashed potatoes made pink by adding some roasted beets, and roasted cauliflower and broccoli.  we also made cheesecake. we had all these prizes and played games like paper airplane contest (i won for the farthest, because i rock paper airplanes), and freeze frame dance and stuffs.  but after i served the cheese cake everyone took off.  so we were done by 7.                                                                                                                                                                                

Tuesday, February 07, 2017

just home from young womens.  michealah and katie helped me figure out this activity.  i had 4 girls so i split them into 2 teams.  one made dessert and the other made a main course.  they had 10.00 to spend on ingredients and 10 minutes at the grocery store to find their ingredients.  before we started i had them tell me different adjectives.  i wrote them down and tore them up and each team had to pick two adjectives.  the dessert girls got crunchy and awkward.  the other girls got slimy and creamy.  uhhhh.....  i was mean because the dessert girls bill came to 10.44 and i wouldn't let them get away with it.  they had to put back something.  haha.  they made awkward crunchy milkshakes with smarties, chocolate ice cream and whipping cream.  the other group made a breakfast sandwich with ham and eggs. (not that slimy or creamy, but pretty tasty)  they were pretty hilarious to watch.

i've been blessed to not feel lousy from my cold during work hours.  maybe i'm too busy to.  but each evening i feel gross and that's when all the violent sneezing that sends cats scrambling out of rooms happens.  today after work i did some haphazard snow maintenance.  but my back was sore from the previous two days of shoveling and i couldn't get too into it.  i came inside and climbed into bed and started working on photos.  but suddenly i was so tired.  like overwhelmingly tired, with a headache and sniffles.  so i gave myself a 30 minute nap and imagined what it would be like if i called in sick tomorrow.  but i know i can't.  but it feels good to contemplate it.

last night i was editing photos and i suddenly realized that i was almost done!  well that made me so giddy that i stayed up late just to finish them off.  now i just have to do karey's reception on the coast and then it's OOOOOOOOOOVER---just like halloween.  it will be a relief to have that not hanging over me anymore.  then it'll just be tatiana and  douglas' october and november shoots to do.  oh and a family shoot for melissa in december.

i can't help it.  i'm boring.  just dig in and settle down for a good daily dose of boring!

yesterday a particularly kooky and lovable member showed up wear a large tan viser.  he had written police in a child like printing on top. he stood there waiting for us to notice him.  lindsay laughed and said "hi police clinton!"  "DON'T call me that!", quipped clinton, "call me constable!"

we had a manager's meeting today.  when we move to our new building in the summer, there will be changes with the units and changes with the staff.  i lose one of my girls.  it makes me sad because we are such a good team right now.  i love the way we are.  i would say it's about perfect.  in the new building i'll also be in charge of all social programs and weekend staff and programs too.  i was supposed to get on more staff but ended up with less than what i was supposed to get.  their first proposal to me was not very good.  i felt like it was a bad deal for us, and i spoke to una about it and she came back to me with at least a concession, so  that is what we are going forward  with.... this all sounds kind of cryptic but that's just on the off chance that someone from work reads this.  because the staff haven't been told yet. that happens next week.

i'll leave you with a few of my faves from karey's bridals.  and just to be clear, when i say 'a few' i mean 'a lot'  but not even close to 'ALL'.
karey wore purple converse with her weddin dress.

 karey had white tulips as her boquet.
karey had her mom with her.


 tammy did her hair and make-up

 vicki did everything.  but here she was helping kare with her buttons and jewelry and such.  but really she did everything.  vicki was the best.

 karey's friends see her...nat's face makes me laugh.
 karey's ceremony took place on a farm, on a hill overlooking the calgary skyline in the distance.
the farmer/hot tub nudist drove me and the jp up to the ceremony site in his handy golf cart

so we didn't know if the piper was going to be there or not, until we arrived there ourselves and saw him.

 this is al.  al is karey's love.  this is also me.  i'm in karey's love's sunglasses.  hi!

 karey and her dad are piped in.

they are married!  the jp likes what he sees.

karey's gorgeous niece tory is too cool and the photography takes time out to acknowledge this. roxy is witness.
 groom crows.  bride is victorious.  guests applaud.

photographer incites guests into jumping craziness.  piper is invited to join and piper does not disappoint.
 later when the photographer was editing these photos she notes a flying baby and is overcome with mirth.
 will the photographer ever stop making large and small groups of people jump? probably not.
 karey and her funny, loyal, hard working  best friends

 karey's love al has a love of hawaiian shirts.  she loves him anyways.  and maybe, just maybe in her heart of hearts she loves what her love loves because she loves her love.

 it was a windy bright day and karey's veil was dancing in the wind in perfect ways.

the photographer got dandilion on her dress and rolled on top of rabbit droppings to get these shots and my have flashed her fleshy white thighs more than once.  a short dress is not ideal for photography sessions. 
 this pic is so karey and al and must needs be included.
 photographer forces bride to risk life on highway for the sake of a shot.
thanks for popping by...
 mr. & mrs.
  i just thought addi and kris looked cute.
 during the toasts...
 first dance... if you enjoy the distribution of paper lanterns by colour and size, you're welcome.  i was in charge of that.

 there was some wild dancing and this is a blurry shot of it.  enjoy.
  this shot says so much.  make your own caption.
 photographer and bride. note that the bride is sunburned because the bride never once in her life has ever learned from sunburns of the past and the groom also forgot to sunscreen and so they were a crispy pair.  a married but a crispy pair.  photographer was not annoyingly condescending about this.
 heather lookin FINE. h, busted her butt helping with this wedding and i really appreciated her selfless example. h is a good pal to have in your corner.  bride has a lot of good friends in her corner on this day.  and aren't wedding celebrations all about surrounding our loved ones with our love on their special days?
woah. suddenly it's july and bride and groom are in a lush rain forest.

 let it be noted that sarah-lynn elizabeth stratton was bride's hair and make-up artist on the coast.

 ok bride and groom are tiny in this shot but photographer is in love with this tree, and this scene.
 photographer has same old tricks she always does. bride and groom each picked a shell that spoke to them, that represented them.  haha photographer enjoys her antics.  groom showed some resistance but buckled to pressures and obviously he inwardly enjoyed his barnacle encrusted, seaweed wisped shell.
 karey chose places meaningful to her.  this is one of her favourite views from her childhood and hometown.  one of photographer's favourite shots.

 love to see what eyes say when they behold their beloved.

and that's all i've got to share today.