brim

sunday morning i opened the door to let the old lady out and there sitting on my top step were simba and nala....in their stuffed animal form.  i have more than a sneaking suspicion who left them there.  saturday night rob called me "i'm not hitting on you laura, but it's 2020, my mom and i would really like to treat you to a dinner at the keg."  apparently a long time ago i said i would go out to eat with him in 2020.  i told him i'd meet him in the park for a hang out some time and he said that with my killer voice and his guitar we could put on a show for 'the kids'.  it took a while for me to squash that dream as well.  next morning disney stuffies on my porch.  classic rob.

i was in a manager's zoom meeting this afternoon--i was working on the porch for most of the day--and the old lady was driving me crazy.  she kept meowing to come out and then meowing to come in and then out and then in and then just complaining.  one of the times i was getting up to let her in colin asked to see her so i brought the laptop with me.  tanya said "oh the other one is in the window." what she saw was simba and nala.  every time my eye lands on them i feel a little irked.  what am i going to do with them?  i dont' have space in my life or heart for 2 disney lion cubs.  then today i had a thought that made me chuckle out loud.  i'm going to leave them on rob's door step and run.  

so working outside i pay the price of the crabby old lady.  i'd say i don't play her game. but i do.  thanks to her incessant mewling i do.  i do.  she knows she has me right where she wants me.  the reward i get for working outside besides how lovely it is just to be outside, is my besties the hummingbirds.  today one visited me and i didn't jerk or have the startle response at all and i was rewarded with her hoverboarding towards my face and just hanging there in the air a minute before leaving.  

i needed to grocery shop today but i didn't.  when it was 4 a wave of sleepiness washed over me.  my friend hammie called for a chat in which we covered many interesting topics including egyptian politics and cacti and many other things.

i don't want to grocery shop.  i just want there to be food.

at nine i was laying on the couch editing photos of white sands national monument and watching tv when i got a call from james.  james is the sweetest member.  he works in the kitchen and does the dishes day in and day out.  he has one of those shy smiles that just melt your heart.  right now he's in the hospital and he calls me now and then.  one time when it was one of my staff's last day, she was hugging james good bye and james said "good bye i love you." and i looked over at pascale who was not leaving but she was in tears.  "what is wrong with you?  you are not saying good bye!" i asked her incredulously.  "i know, " wailed pascale through her tears "i just realized that i can never leave james!"  anyways he's the gentlest guy and i'm glad i know him and he can call me if he needs to talk.  

instead of haida gwaii what about the yukon??  it's just like driving to LA. basically.  

here's some more blue and white pics of white sands national monument later in the evening when the sun low on the horizon created some shadows.  i left heather on her perch again and this time i was gone.   i hiked as far as i could to find a place with no foot prints and pristine drifts. until i felt like i was alone in the wonder of this strange a beautiful place.  and just right before the sun totally set the battery on my camera died.  but i documented the rest of it with my phone and felt filled up to the brim living life the way i wanted to.  and so thankful to be there. i miss that kind of living right now.

just cannot get enough pics of my shadow.

life in the desert.  if you look closely you can see the chomp this beetle took out of this plant.