i'd like to say that i found the red moon, but i didn't. i drove around for a while to different places to try to get a good view. but the clouds had rolled in on top of the fog and they hogged the red moon viewing to themselves. i stopped at this neighbourhood park in kerrisdale and at first was alarmed to see the dark shapes of some other people by the park...but they were just other lunar seekers like me and they were packing up. i glanced up and saw another dark form leaning out of his balcony peering towards the west where the red moon was supposed to be. red moon you eluded me.
i stopped and mcdonald's for an early morning breakfast treat.
i was back in bed by 4:40 looking at worldwideweb accounts of the eclipse. i began to feel heavy and warm and i drifted off to sleep. i didn't come back to the world until 11am. and i didn't get out of bed until 12:30.
i wandered through my dirty, messy, cluttered, neglected home, thinking about a david grey song and how i wanted to live again but i didn't know where to start. i gave the crunchies and came back here to write. i'm getting stronger but my bed is fighting hard to keep me.