sosososo tired. and you know what? my throat is the most painful when i am swallowing food. i think it's a sign. i need to go off of solids. ha. as if there's a chance of that. i'm getting random stabs of pain in my ear too.

amy you didn't take the books!!!

this morning i slept in until 8:30. then i didn't get out of bed except to go pee and feed the cats. i grabbed a book and began to read and it's not even a well written book. i wanted it to be, but it just wasn't. i finally got out of bed ten minutes to twelve and i was supposed to leave at 12. heh heh er. books bring out the worst in me at times. i ended up doing a mad dash with all my preparations, thawing a frozen baggie of chicken soup and slurping it down luke warm, placing the mostly full bowl as is back in the fridge. it's hard to chew with your helmet on and i put it on while the soup was thawing, to use my time wisely, an ironic statement, i know. but in the end i got to work on time and that's all that matters.

i wonder if i left my hair clips at b squared place in vilhelm's lake. in any case i haven't found them since arriving home but that doesn't' mean they're not here. speaking of vilhelm's lake, lisa who has cousins there, told me that the lake is dead. there is nothing running in or out of it so that means it's dead. she said her uncle who was a rescue diver or something, said it was the worst lake to dive in because it was so murky and weedy and you couldn't see the bodies until you bumped into them. creepy.

i got to go to the movies for work tonight. i didn't have much to choose from, which is often the case when you actually score a movie night. i chose the spyderwick chronicles. it was cute. dave d. said he was glad he didn't pay for it. i yelled out loud at one point. there's no point in trying to be something you're not. and i am someone who yells or screams when people or things jump out at other people, such as the main characters whom i've formed an empathetic attachment with, even if i know that they are going to be jumped at. actually the anticipation can make it worse. anyways there's no point in trying to hold that in. i mean there are so many other parts of me that i have to control, why control that??

i got irritated with beryl today. she committed the mortal crime of letting me serve her food and then coming right back and asking if she can take it home in a container. she was too full so she wanted to take it home. this is the second time she has done this to me and it just really bugs me. i mean why not just ask to have it in a container in the first place instead going through the farce of making me serve it up on a plate? i over reacted though because one extra dirty plate is just not that important. what's important is that she bugged me.

i was bugged earlier also. but in between being bugged i did yoga and forgot about it until after the lights were back on. i don't know why i'm so irritable today. when i got home elicia vented to me about her day and then i vented to her. sometimes venting can be reciprocal.

been on the phone for an hour. gotta go put this tired girl who is myself to bed.