i should be in bed. i shouldn't be such a fool of a took. but i am. speaking of the lovable pippin, i've finished watching the lord of the ring trilogy again. i watched one friday night, one saturday and one today. the completion left me empty, not unlike when i finished the books. the books were worse though. i felt emotionally exhausted. it had to be a long time until i felt like watching the movies again. and now i've indulged and it's done with.

now that tv is over for the summer, maybe i'll read more. there's so much to read and i just put it off like i do all things. seeing that i have this tendency, every thing i manage to accomplish should be seen as an heroic feat of some sort. don't you think?

i didn't do much all day today. after the movie and after my shower, i read about the lord of the ring characters on wikepedia. i left getting ready for our outing to the last minute. i need building pressure as a catalyst for change, for movement of any sort it seems. that's when i am morphed into slug state. some of you recall the " i'm a slug and slugs don't care" period of my life. well it can come and go. i wish it was cured, but it's more like in an on again off again type of remission.

our outing was dinner at the cactus club. dave rejected the truck stop dinner. he told heather to try again, so we did. elicia came too. after being a slug all day it's nice to dress up. i wore my new necklace from the night market. as someone i used to know said once "you sure clean up nice."

cactus club was fun. i purposely ate little during the day, all the better to feast on dave's treat if you know what i mean. i liked our seats. we were on the covered patio in a cozy corner. i liked our waiter. he was professionally and unobtrusive. all week i was planning on the bandara salad, but once there i lusted after the soft fish tacos which i've always wanted to try. well they were out of the fish tacos and they were out of daiquiris, and smoothies too, and they no longer sold milkshakes. i didn't let it get to me. i ordered a water and a bandara salad. we all got the bandara. when heather's virgin strawberry margarita came, it looked so good that i ordered that instead of the milkshake. and i wasn't disappointed. it was sooooo good and it hit the spot and hit it hard if you give me the knowing look, i send it back to you. we got yam fries to start. yam fries that were crispy, yet soft with a yummy garlic dip. they were something to lick your chops over. and the salads were delicious of course and for dessert i got the chocolate lava cake. divine. perfect.

i was buzzing after dinner. it was a combo of the sugar and getting out of the house, frankly that set me off. i wanted to do something. but the other's wanted to go home, so we did.

i called fatima and that helped to take some of the edge off, but i'm still full of wanting excitement and all that awaits me is my bed and a day of work tomorrow.

elicia stole six of my carrots despite my explicit notification that her carrots were behind her mushrooms and mine were behind mine. how could she? how can anything ever be the same between us???