each day i think of the broccoli in my fruit and veggie drawer at the bottom of the fridge. each day i think of it and tell myself "today i eat the broccoli." i feel relieved when i tell myself this. finally some green nutrition. but today i'm eating pizzarogies with grated gouda cheese and yesterday i had bread and cheese and the day before i had something equally as colourless. i don't know why i deny myself the goodness i yearn for. i just do.

i'm finished the hundred secret senses by amy tan. what a good book. what a good writer. it's not just a good story. sometimes i read just for the story, but this is a well crafted work as they say. i love reading well written things. i love the beauty and the power of language. you guys know what i mean. we're language people and music is just another language that touches us.

i was listless at work today. i stayed up late reading last night. the power of the book world was upon me. i watched grey's anatamy too. i read in the commercials. i too have been hooked. it happened at auntie sheri's for me. anyways last night's was a two hour re-run that of course i hadn't seen. george's dad died. it was so sad. i cried and cried. george said "i don't know how to be in a world without him." yah. i think about that and i feel that too, like a world without one of my loved ones would be incomprehensible. at our morning unit meeting at work i said sadly "george's dad died." i felt so sad about it. lisa often tells me "it's just tv!" i get so emotionally involved. this time she laughed and said if i kept on watching that show i was going to have to go on prozac.