foxes sleep in the forrest. lions sleep in their dens. goats sleep on the mountain side and piggies sleep in pens.

i'm excited. i have a book to read. sometimes that's all it takes. i was over for sa FHE at heather's and i saw it laying there atop the books on her shelf. "have you read this yet?" i asked hopefully. and my face fell when she said no. but then she said she was reading another book and that i could read it and i felt happy. it's joy luck club. some may know that i love the movie, so i hope i'll love the book too. maybe i'll love it better! "mei mei!" "jai jai!" i love that part. ask amy. she'll tell you.

elicia is making dutch speculaas cookies and the house smells spicey. i ate some of the dough (not our brother) and i don't mind telling you that it was quite tastey, as elicia would say. she's not too impressed with them because she had to leave out the nutmeg for fear of nut alergies at her school. it's her school's UN day and she's dressing dutch. she's going to make a hat out of the brown paper dairy queen bag that held the late buster bars.

i didn't carve a pumpkin at heather's. i didn't have one. i'm getting it from the pumpkin patch this weekend. and i got home late because me and my boy archie were at the vet for the pre-anesthetic visit where we were forgotten in the room for quite some time. we really were forgotten. one of the nurses finally accidentally walked in on us and was very surprised to see us. then i heard her tell jack (the vet) that we were waiting. "nobody told me!" he said. oh well. all is in order. tomorrow's archie's big day. i'm glad that operation "keep the cats apart" will be over. they miss each other and they're so much more needy without each other.

when i got home i made a chicken, shrimp, broccoli and carrot stir fry for me and elicia and then i walked over to heather's. i like walking in the dark in the fall. i was half an hour late and sara b., tammy-lynn and shauna were already there. it was a nice time. just the girls. we talked a lot and it was nice to get to know them. i cleaned the pumpkin guts off of the seeds. i liked heather's best. two small round eyes and a huge curly moustache. sara did a cat and a happy halloween and basically had the awe of the other carvers who were more triangle and squares types of carvers. there was kettle corn and gummi bears.

elicia just asked me where archie was, and we went in search of him to ensure he did not penetrate the fortress of izzy somehow. elicia found him. he was in the dark in the bathtub. he finally gained enough courage to go right in. i had just cleaned out his litter box (a job one dreads but then isn't so bad once one gets off one's duff and does it) and he always watches me do it and plays with any suds that i spill over the side of the tub. so he was in the tub swatting droplets as they ran down. he's so unbearably cute sometimes. how come i got the exact kind of cat that i wanted? spooky, but cool at the same time.

there was basically no one at work today. in my unit, it was only me and kaz. kaz is new and doesn't have a car. mondays are the days that we do two big shops. one person goes to save-on and one person goes to superstore. so there was tons of people gone from all the other units too. big mac was no help to me. what could i do? someone had to run the kitchen and make lunch and kaz was too new to do that. and so i made the radical decision of no shopping. we only needed buns for the sandwich station and i asked maureen to buy them for us. having not enough people is actually good sometimes. it forces you to do a better job getting the members involved because you need them, and because you really need them, the members are more apt to get involved. so i went in the afternoon and had two helpers, so it went quite quickly and wasn't as bad as i thought. lisa m. will do the other one tomorrow morning. i needed to leave early to get a new bank card, kitty litter and get archie to the vet, so when i went to leave i realize that only kaz and the girl who started today were there and of course they don't know how to close up. there were only two members so i closed us down fifteen minutes early. it was my day of radical decisions. this week is going to be a challenge at work and it's going to rest on my shoulders. that's the point.

this morning heather and i went on our first walk run. we met on the road between our roads at 6:20. i could see her short figure coming towards me and it was nice to have a friend to meet in the dark cold morning. i'm glad she wants to do it because it's just too spooky doing it by myself in the morning dark (for some reason night darks are much more friendly to me), and the desire to be running again has been growing in me. running in the morning makes my hair less defined and it curls softly. that's how i describe it. i showered but didn't wash my hair. i was enjoying it until i saw scott and he said "hi laura. you're hair's frizzy today." i suppose frizzy is the right word, but it took some of the enjoyment off of it. that's part of where i work. i get a lot of comments on my apperance, good, bad, inappropriate and sweet. it's just the way it is. and actually most things said are nice things. for example every time i see larry he says "can i just tell you how pretty you are?" then he says "i'd be honoured if you would be my girlfriend." he says it in such a formal sincere way that i don't feel creeped out and disrespected and can find gentleness in my reply.

i was thinking about mental illness today and wondering why people have to suffer that way. the way that takes a part of them away and changes them into something else sometimes. i have lots of wonderings about this topic. it's something i really don't understand.

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