blue moon, i see you standing alone, without a star in the sky, you need a love of your own.

"i feel happy! i feel happy!" it's nights like tonight that give me contentment and joy and make me feel like maybe i'm not wasting my life after all. maybe i am living some of my dreams. barb and i finally did the moonlight paddle! the indian arm was gorgeous and the water was like glass. we started out just before the sun was setting. i was sitting in the pinta, my favourite kayak waiting to be pushed into the water when Lorraine who was our original instructor last year came to push me out. "you have two paddles?" she asked. "yep." i replied, thinking she was just making sure i was ready. she kind of laughed and said "what are you going to do with the other one?" then i clued in and laughed. "um i don't know!" i answered and felt sheepish. so i gave it back. barb and i were in the fast group for once. this is because we went really slow for all those beginners who were with us. this one couple said they'd canoed, never kayaked and they capsized twice. haha. the guy kept telling the girl not to panic and she was all i'm not panicking! stop telling me not to panic! anyways the atmosphere is totally different than women on the water where there's all these competitive women who go really fast. on this tour you totally relax and take your time. i had to keep slowing down to stay with our front guide, who we weren't supposed to pass although barb frequently did. we had to stay together more for safety reasons. we had glow sticks duct taped to our paddles. when it got really dark we snapped them on. it looked cool. sometimes i momentarily blinded myself with my own paddle. the moon was almost full and it was lovely. in the dark everything looks close enough to touch. that's what guide buddy said. barb and i had so much fun. and it was so calm and perfect out. i could have stayed out there all night instead of the short three hours.