losing an hour of sleep is so sad. i love every little bit of sleep i get.

this has been an especially good general conference weekend for me. it's funny, sometimes i don't even realize that what i really needed and had been wanting was a spiritual renewal until i get it and i recognize my need being fulfilled. on saturday i was so weepy. it was such a relief to be filled up with the spirit and the goodness of the gospel. i think i might have had a tear rolling down my cheek on a continual basis. even some in between session things that i've seen a million times before really touched me this time. there was so much wisdom and light flowing and i had personal insights and inspirations that i wrote in parenthesis. it was good. gooooooooooood. i felt really thankful. i wanted to try to keep feeling that way as long as i could. i doodled less, and had a longer attention span. it wasn't until the start of the 5th session today that i felt a need to start listing the states alphabetically. and even after that i got caught up in it all again. there is so much goodness to be enjoyed while you endure the hours of conference. hours of shifting your weight from one bum cheek to another from sitting back to sitting forward, legs crossed this way legs crossed that way, legs down...etc.

i haven't done much this weekend besides conference. friday night was the academy awards. i'm pretty sure it's the last one for me. the first one was a film acted entirely by figurines, the main character being hulk hogan. karey and i thought it was pretty funny but not a lot of other people laughed. victoria did some good ones, almost all featuring one ritchie rich of one mean green bean's aquantance. i liked the commercials they did about institute. there was a borderline appropriate one with the stucci boys and some friends on a road trip. they did a couple of group peeing shots and one with a guy smoking. it had no story line and a pointless ending. i wasn't a fan. but i did like some others. we left before the awards were given out and chris and amy convinced us to go to the spaghetti factory with them. karey was uncomfy in her hot to trot outfit. no matter what we said she would not believe that she looked like the hot mamma she did. the picture that cher had of her in that outfit was to be believed over us. but she was quite the number, anyways karey agreed to go despite her uncomfiness. we went to the one in the heart of scummy new west. i wasn't impressed because i got cheesie garlic bread and it was soggy, oily and rubbery. but i did enjoy that we got spumoni with the meal. when our waiter was coming up he caught karey grooving along to billy joel. he seemed amused the fact that karey was a billy joel fan. karey got lasagna because that is what she is wont to get at a pasta/italian place. karey is wont to order the same kinds of things. elicia had a healthy spinach salad with apples in it and some chowder.

last night after conference i met lisa at the gym for a work out. as we worked out side by side on the stair master and eliptical she kept directing my attention to an old man with tight pants and a short tight tank top down below us on the bottom floor. personally i as trying not to focus my gaze in his directionals. the abs machine has been broken all week at the gym and the fact is starting to bug me, but lisa is trying to get me to adopt the ball abs work out. i resist this because i am not a fan of the unflattering poses i have to do in public and i am not a fan of falling off the ball in front of the gym public. she says i should practice at her house. i say i will to humour her, but secretly hope the abs machine is fixed quickly.

after the movie we went back to her house and showered and prettified ourselves and then went out to the movies. now when i go to the movies, if i ever indulge in popcorn, i have found that the kids deal is just right for me. i like the little bucket and little cup and the little treat you get with it. it's just enough popcorn. but yesterday night we felt greedy and we decided to each get a large popcorn. what a big mistake. after it seemed like i had been eating it forever it still seemed like i had not even made a dent. i never finished it. i left it unfinished and abandoned on the floor of the movie theatre.

karey is doing a weird sort of snore on the couch right now. heeehee.

when i got home scott and randy were over and everyone was talking about death and the troubles in families about who gets what after a loved one dies. that kind of strife during a time of grief is so distastful to me. i hope that when anyone in our family dies (which i hope is a long long long time away) that we don't fight about anything like that. i hope that we will draw together instead. that kind of greed and contention is so ugly.

between sessions we didn't have our usual tuna sandwiches today. we went to scott's house and had french toast and bacon and hashbrowns and fruit salad. it was really nice and really good.

the house is very quiet. i may be the only one awake except for elicia but she if she is awake she's as quiet as a mouse in church.