been on holiday so long that i'm no longer very aware of dates and days. not a bad condition. after christmas it's a leisurely time for being with people. and i've been with some people, and you could say we did some things. here's a few of them:

1.) one day sarah-lynn showed up to hang out with us. she was talking about pregnancy things and kyle and so i thought of this vinyl cafe story called labour pains and i had burnt it for dad, so i brought her into mom's room and mom and sarah and bethany all lay on the waterbed and i sat in the rocking chair and we listened to it and they liked it and i was glad. then mom had her nap and our house seemed dull, so we decided to go to sarah's. we watched the last samurai and ate corn on the cob microwave popcorn and anne's partay-hartay mix of nuts n' bolts. i hadn't seen the last samurai since seeing the sneek preview in the theatre with leif and his dorm buddies. so the time was ripe for the watching. i love love love katsumoto and he loves me too. i'm his true taka, i just know it.

then sarah cut bethany's bangs and sitting on the toilet watching them, i was overcome by the sudden desire for a side swipe of my own and so i asked for and recieved one.

kyle wants to trade soaps with sarah. kyle likes nice smelling soaps and taking baths.

later that night we played games with mom and dad. it was difficult to have everyone agree on a game as usual but after some exasperation everyone agreed on slang teasers. "fatima would have enjoyed this." i said. "really?" inquired mother, "yes." i said. "she's loved slang teasers ever since that time we played it around the camp fire at pachina bay." "we did that?" mother wondered. "yes we did." i confirmed. i didn't do too well at the beginning of slang teasers. i was in the back of the pack and not feeling the mantle of slang teasers falling upon me. but i later came into my own. kyle was so close to winning but four times in a row two people picked my definition and so i beat him by one point. i felt pretty good about it. after slang teasers we weren't done with games. mom went to bed but the rest of us played pictionary. it was sarah and me against dad, kyle and bethany. sarah and i were on fire and it was one of those games that were over quickly. we hardly had to draw anything and the other person would guess what it was. such a delightful feeling. then bethany and i traded teams to mix it up a bit. it was a close game and dad became a defeatist when amay joined their team, but we didn't lose by much. some of dad's drawings were so funny. like gift wrap. he knew exactly what it was but we didn't. how were we to know the box with little squares in it and the big square beside it was a box of chocolates and some wrapping paper? but to him it was very clear. haha.

2.) another day bethany and i drove over to katie's. we were in mom's car and bethany investigated. she found a true gem--the original raffi tape. apparently mom still listens to it. so of course we put it in and sang along on the way to katies and then on the way to toplite to get her van. katie was squished in the back between natalie and michealah's car seats. back at katie's we settled down to watch the samantha movie. (hey katie samantha was the girl in charlie and the chocolate factory. it was bethany who realized it.) it was a cute story and the little girls loved it. after that we went home for some foods and brought a reluctant amay skating with us. she was quite tetchy on the way there, but as predicted her spirits rose when she got on the ice. the twins looked so cute skating around full of glee, rosy cheeked and clad in turquoise. my spirits weren't so high. it was just frusterating not being able to skate and wanting to. it looked so fun and everybody was just gliding along gracefully and happily and then there was me desperately clinging to the boards and woefully and awkwardly trying to slide my clumsy leaden feet forward in a manner of skating but only jerking about. it was depressing. ah well. maybe i'll get lessons one day. that's what i need. i have no natural instinct for it like swimming, say. after skating we got i am sam for the twins and the legend of 1900 for me. we watched 1900. it was pretty good but i didn't agree with the ending. boo! i say.

3.) yesterday i got myself ready and bethany joined me for a venture to the bay to see what to spend my gift certifricate from mom and dad on. it was fun looking around at all the stuff and imagining buying it. first we sank down in many a comfy couch and chair and oohed and ahhhhed and said how much we loved that particular one. not that we thought we could buy a chair or couch. we also looked at jewelry and bags ( i found a couple of nine west bags that i really really liked) and at mac make-up. we were specifically looking at eyeshadows. when i saw a colour i liked i would take a swipe with my finger and smear it on the back of bethany's hand and she would do likewise to me. in the end we had very creative hands. with painted or circled knuckles and padded dotting and smeared rivers. no one even tried to help us except one girl came up after we had been there a long time and snottily handed us tissues "do you need some of these?" she asked with raised eyebrow. we took it thanked her and did not wipe off our creations. bethany said we had to keep it all on during the movie. from make-up we looked at perfume a little, and at clothes. it was really a choice between a nice small stereo for my room or a combo of everything else. we decided not to decide that day and went to see memoirs of a geisha. sarah was supposed to come. amay came haphazardly and so did not sit with us. the chairman loves me and i him. i am chiochan in his eyes.

we went to sarah's christmas girl's party. we brought 6 layered bean dip and tortillas. sarah had warm soft homemade foccacia bread to dip in the oil and the balsamic. i think of all the things, the bread and the fresh peas and dip were my favourites. we played a very listless game of cranium. it wasn't my favourite, i'm not going to lie to you. but then we played a fun game of consequences which loosened us up and made us laugh. of course maria was in the middle of it all getting into things all night and being the loudest and the most 'into' things when we were all paying her no mind. some people painted their toes and such. then we all talked for a long long long long long time. we got onto family matters and that always takes you on a long trip that does not end naturally. tracy was asleep on the couch and woke up, well not really, but she started talking and didn't make any sense and we all laughed. a little after three katie and i left but we talked for another hour in front of our house before we finally parted ways. family is a large complicated, joyous, frusterating, comforting, painful, workshop of life kind of thing.

4.) that's today. today bethany and i drove to victoria and looked for a place for her and amay to live in. it was a productive day. we met nick, and jason and shannon and saw some houses with some possibility but bethany should tell about it and about what happened. that's her story, as aslan would say. speaking of aslan, isn't that a wonderful clue if one were guessing the name caroLION?? isn't it? before we went home i went to zellars and used my gc to buy the stereo. the strapping lad there was quite taken by bethany. "why her eyes are the same startling colour has her coat!" he thought to himself. the thought made him drop the box with the stereo in it and that made him blush because she was there, and she saw it.

i've been reading the narnia series. i'm on the 4th book now. the mice have kept me out of any sleeping arrangement on the bottom floor of this house. i just cannot sleep in squeaker-ville. so i sleep on the couch most nights and one night when it was stormy and rainy i saw that dad wasn't sleeping on the cot on the covered patio as he often does, so i ventured out. the cot was covered with a vinyl-ie orange-flowered table cloth, i guess to keep the dew off. i took it off and climbed under the covers. it was a lovely sleep. sometimes the wind blew at me but i put my head under the covers and was fine. i love the sound of rain. i loved being so close to the elements. i loved me toasty and cozy and cool and wild at the same time. my dad loves it too.

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