well i don't really feel like writing lately. i don't have the majic feeling anymore. maybe it'll come back... but until then, i finally took my car in for an oil change. it was painful. tomorrow it's the brakes. i anticipate more pain. and i have no one to blame but myself. i'm a neglectful car mom. randy went fishing and caught a salmon today. he's spending his time off fishing. he comes over a lot because he's bored and worried and we're his friends. anyways he brought us a chunk of salmon. i cut it into steaks and looked up a recipe in my salmon cookbook. i made a mustard paste and bbq-ed the steaks. there were only three steaks and they got progressivly small because it was going down to the tail. anyways they were small but we all picked at them. pretty good if i say so myself. i was worried the others wouldn't like the mustard paste but i knew i would. i'm a mustard type of girl and i'm no ashamed (ya i meant 'no' and not 'not). we've been watching this creepy show about a teacher who seduces his student. i don't like it actually. it makes me feel bad. i came downstairs to get away from it. then sarita started watching it down here. ugh, he is so creepy and manipulative. it makes me angry. but i do want to see if she's allright in the end. don't we all want to know that it's allright in the end?