i've eaten more potato pattie hashbrowns than i care to admit. i'm not talking in my lifetime. i'm talking in my dinner time. i came home from work enthused about washing my car, came downstairs, read the journals, and curled up on the couch for a pleasant snooze. the pleasantry of the snooze ended as soon as heather thundered up the stairs and continued her thunder-making in the house. she just can't help it. she's loud. even if she's trying to be quiet, it makes no difference. she may as well not try because she is not capable. she does not have the ability. she's quiet handicapped. oh well i thought, half an hour is a good enough snooze. i went upstairs where karey was watching ellen and sewing a quilt for ange's baby shower. it was a rerun but i hadn't seen it and it was enjoyable. laura-lie gilmour was on. she's funny. she was talking about getting mooned when you're driving by a passing car. ellen was quite shocked and had never heard of this phenomenon.

it was during ellen that i felt the first hunger pangs. evening hunger pangs are depressing because they remind me that i don't have proper cooking food despite resolving again and again in my heart to start cooking suppers again. i was looking forlornly in the fridge and freezer hoping like i do when i get ready for church that something i have will seem new and exciting and doable. that by some kind of magic i'll have some ingredients that i didn't know i had, or that i'll get an idea of something fabulous to make that i never thought of before. you know, that type of thing. well i was about to give up in despair when the very magic i sought ocurred. i remembered with a jolt of joy that when i had been impulse grocery shopping, i had purchased hashbrown patties. joy of joys. i made them and i made some houmus. the houmous was for absolutely no reason at all. i just saw it in my cupboard and thought why on earth do i never make that, so i did. the hashbrown patties were good although not as good as they are at work when we serve them with bacon and egg mcmuffins and some fruit slices, but they were very filling. i ate my supper with elicia in the kitchen. she had turkey and chese sandwiches and some raw veggies. we talked about her plans to move to victoria in a year or so and what kind of job prospects there are there.

after eating the hashbrowns i didn't know what to do. i mean like what was there? i thought of washing my car but karey was going into the shower, so i decided to go outside and read. and so i picked up book two of lemony snicketts and headed out. i did read for some time (maybe ten minutes), but karey and heather came out and it was impossible not to talk to them. it just couldn't be done. now they're gone and i'm left to do as i would with a heavy hashbrown pattie belly and a salt parched tongue.

today we got a new upstairs manager at work.

today at work i had the funny sensation as i was walking by the big boss' office and stopped in to say a silly hello. the funny sensation was this: hey i've been working here for a year now! (over a year). it was the, hey i know everybody and i'm comfortable here feeling. it was the look at me feeling. ha ha, not really, but i wanted to continue describing the feeling and that just came out, although totally untrue.

yesterday rs was on making goals and it got me thinking. barb talked about her goal of going to byu for grad school and how she's been researching how to take gre and stuff and it got me thinking about grad school and how that was my goal and what if i went somewhere totally new, and would i like it and could i do it, and do i still want the same thing? i mean i'm happy in vancouver, but maybe i should try somewhere new.... but maybe not. i like thinking about it though. (and andrea don't recommend the adlerian school)

heather turned on fear factor. she said she likes to watch my reactions because they're cute. apparently she thinks retching is cute. i actually did retch this one time she was watching it and they had scoop live bugs up in their mouth off of this gooey stuff on a rope. it was the close up shot that did me in.

laura you have to go to work early tomrorow. don't forget. i won't.