i was walking into sunday school today when bree stopped me and said "you. i have a present for you." and stood up, walked over to me and gave me a hug and said "here's your present." "uhh... thank you " i said, a little taken back by the out of the blue hugging. she often does things like that. it's her style.

nobody comes to choir anymore. i feel really bad for president kennedy because he's trying to get us ready for christmas performances and it's hard to know if we can do anything, because it's hard to know who will be there from week to week. today there were only four sopranos and elicia and i were the strongest ones because the other two had missed some practices. the altos were very strong and we had our usual one man tenor and eventually three bass. at one point elicia and i lost it while practicing carol of the bells. we were so out of breath from the fast never ending pace that the sopranos have to keep in that song and it seemed to be getting faster and faster, and then the tenor (named john) who was sitting right behind us came in really loud and intense and there was just something about it. we broke down and laughed and laughed. it was bad because the other sopranos got lost once we stopped singing. it happened a couple times. we couldn't help it. every time he would come in we got the giggles. it wasn't his singing or anything it was just the moment and how it felt like his head was right on our shoulders. finally elicia had to remove herself from the situation and after that we got ourselves together.

after choir we went over to jackie and kaisha's to be visit taught by jackie and mary. they fed us too. our lesson was on grace. later pat came over and we all played this game called sequence. it was allright. pat's a good guy. amelia also lives with jackie and kaisha, which i didn't know. it seems like i don't know anything these days. anyways she came home with her boyfriend and while we were playing we could hear her reading things from the paper like "a man in china slashed ..." and "did you know most accidents come from snowboarding than by any other..." she was the good news girl. then she was doing the crossword, with periodic comments like "i can feel myself getting smarter and smarter."

last night sara burnham came over to visit and she asked me if steve and i had been going out and that she heard a rumor about it from berit, then two or three people at church asked me about steve. suzy roth, who i had no idea knew anything about steve or i, said "oooooooooh! (like a squeal) how are things going with you and your boyfriend?" i said "we broke up about a month ago.....so things are going fine." :) what else to say? fox laughed and said to suzy "now that was an uncomfortable moment." anyways after all that the first thing pat says to me is "laura, are you and steve... (now i thought he would follow form and finish his question with a word like dating, or going out or something like that. but no.) brother and sister?" everyone laughed and i said "no." he said "are you related ?" "ah no. not at all." he didn't get why people were snickering so i explained that we had been dating. he said it was too bad because i wouldn't have to change my name. that is a regret i have, but it's not one of the biggies. but still, what are the odds i'll fall for another clarke?

need to sleep. been thinking a lot lately. a lot.